On the weekend of April 12-15, I
attended a Formation Convocation in Chicago with my community, the Felician
sisters. I joined 51 of our sisters: those in leadership, in varying stages of
formation, and those in formation. What I expected to be a meeting turned out
to be a community retreat where we reflected on formation that is centered in a
relationship with God. We shared personally in small groups. Activities were
planned that facilitated deep group discussions, too. In one of them, formators
and those in formation took turns discussing their responses to reflection
questions about the current formation process. The sisters who listened were
moved by the personal disclosure of those in initial formation; those who
disclosed were touched by the love and support they experienced. They trusted
that what they said would be accepted with love and honor. It was an experience
of accompaniment for us all.
I was a part of a panel that shared
how our family life provided an experience of the transcendent. I had said yes
to the invitation to respond to this question in the presence of community,
despite the fact that my childhood had yielded a more deformed than
transcendent image of God and the Catholic Church. My background includes
divorce, anger and hurt feelings, lapsed Catholicism, and all the issues that
come with them. I reflected on the topic for a week before the Convocation, but
arrived in Chicago unsure of what I would say to my sisters.
On the day of the panel, the
presenter shared personally about how her parents and childhood experiences
influenced her image of God. By that point of the weekend, the Holy Spirit was
definitely moving among us. I could feel the love in the room, and my fears
subsided. I was opening up to the presence of God in our midst, especially
present in the hearts of my sisters. I told my story with the rest of the
panelists—unfiltered, without holding back. As I spoke, I could feel the
support and encouragement of my sisters, and I knew that it was received in
love. Later, several of them approached me, thanking me for sharing. I was glad
that I did! It’s risky to be vulnerable, but it was a blessing to receive their
sisterly love.
At the end of the weekend, we
reflected on the experience. We agreed that sincere disclosure and trusting
vulnerability had been met by deep listening and loving acceptance. It was a
Spirit-filled time of authenticity and growth. Many of us noticed the disparity
between what transpired and what daily life was like at our convents. The
realization was voiced: Why don’t we self-disclose? How little we know each
other! Spiritual goals were formed: Be
vulnerable! Respectfully receive what others share! Tell my stories! Go deeper
in daily conversations!
I made one, too: To remember how openly I had shared
and how lovingly it was received.
Here are some photos of some of us younger members from the weekend:
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